After finding trp, I did everything I was supposed to do... Workout, see a bunch of girls, etc... But there was this one oneitis from high school that I still thought of sometimes... Recently I saw that she gained a lot of weight, and I lost my attraction to her immediately... Which made me question myself if I truly liked her or if it was only based on her looks... And I think it was just her looks... She was the last person holding me away from being completely redpilled. The hardest part of it is that now I almost feel as if I have no choice but to be redpilled because I know the truth and no longer have anyone I really liked and I'll probably never like anyone in the future that much... I'm 21 btw. I almost feel hopeless... Ha... Idk I just feel like I have reached a point where I have lost my innocence as a person. This is quite disheartening because it was always girls in the past that made me turn to trp, but it seems that ultimately I am the person who has finally made me turn to trp completely...