It's difficult to convince myself NOT to. I know I'd regret not wishing her had I never during this moment of time. I'd spend the whole day questioning myself. The coronavirus situation doesn't help either.

I wish her the best, not dead. I don't care how she feels about me. I wanted to stress this isn't the first time. There's a history. I'm sure she won't mind.

In comparison to last year, I'm improving as a person. I no longer have sleepless nights thinking of her. The unscarred past of her would care, I kid not.