Hello guys,

You all have a different view on things and in a way seem like the father figure that a lot of young men, including myself, didn't have growing up so I'd like y'all's advice if you're willing.

Situation:

I'm currently about 24 credit hours from graduating in Computer Science. (9 hours if I pass all my classes this semester) Sounds great, except it's not. I bullshitted my way through, had depression since day 1, barely studied, rarely networked, didn't do any internships, etc. Basically failed college. My excuse is never really loving the subject. I have next to no interest in it. The only reason I chose it was because I was told by parents to go to college(If I could go back I'd do a trade), I'm pretty decent with tech(but honestly millenials all are..), and I heard it recommended a lot. Anyways this current semester I'm getting hit hard with depression. I can't even tell you how much classes I've skipped, how much assignments I've turned in literally 1 minute before it's due date, how much studying I haven't done, and how much poor grades I've gotten. If I can't push myself to do those things, how can I expect to graduate?

Honestly the #1 thing I'd love to do would be to just drop out. However I've been told how stupid of an idea that is many times. But is it really, when my job prospects are potentially nil because of how I've performed? Another reason why it's dumb is because I legitimately don't know what I'd do otherwise, I have no serious interests, and don't want to be 30 years old still 'finding myself'. And I'm not sure I'd be happy losing freedom for 4/6 years by taking a military contract.

Notes:

  • Pretty sure the reason I'm depressed is because I'm in CS/college. So taking meds won't do anything.

  • The program isn't hard. Everything makes sense if I actually take the time to look at it. I just don't study(was one of those unchallenged high gpa kids in grade school, fucked me up probably), but if I did I'd probably have like a 3.5+gpa. Currently have 2.5. Right now I'd rather stare at a blank wall then open a textbook or even login to my school account.

So any words of wisdom?

I can go into more detail if needed.