Hi guys. I will keep it short.

I am improving myself for about two years but now for the last 4 months I am feeling really bad. I mean I still lift 4 times a week and eat properly. But my mind keeps driftig to the memoryes of me in the past. Of thinks I did. Bad thinks, all the lying cheating,... I was a bad person to my girlfriend, to al of my girlfriends and to friends. Nobody found out anything so we are still cool. I think my values changed dramaticly since then and probably this is a problem. I can't find peace with myself. I can't forgive mysefl. I think I am also consernd that someone will found out what I was back then...

I am not looking for a quick answear. But reather would like some literature about the thing that is happening to me. I like to understand the things that are happening to me. This is the only way I can overcome myself. This is how i'we done everything till now. Even thought of going to someone to talk to but currently don't have the money.

Thank you guys!