Me and my LTR split almost 2 months ago. I had oneitis for most of the relationship pretty heavily; probably the most oneitis i've ever seen in anyone. She was my first and only girlfriend and we were together from when I was 17-20. Towards the end (the last year of the relationship) I knew it was coming to an end and without even realizing it prepared myself by emotionally distancing myself. When we split I wasn't very upset because I did want to be alone again. I still haven't cried once over the relationship ending but a few weeks ago I had a dream that she was dating this boy she used to be friends with and she essentially just told me in the dream he was better than me blah blah just usual sad things. Her having a boyfriend (I don't know if she actually does I haven't spoken to her) didn't bother me to think about at all before this dream. Someone told me a few weeks ago they saw her with that guy in public and it really didn't upset me at all I was glad she's moving on. My dilemma is that ever since I had that dream I have been thinking about her much more. Sometimes I even Hamster the thoughts of "one day we can try again," but of course i'm not going to act on them. It's worth noting that I also went through some of our old stuff the other day as I cleaned my room out and some of it did take me back and make me emotional so that could be causing this too. My question is, why am I feeling this way now? Is that part of the moving on process where for some reason a month and a half later I miss her and think about her a lot? Does this go away? I haven't been with any girls since because I'm just focusing on saving money and trying to build muscle. (i'm extremely skinny for now) Is this normal and when will it go away?