I can't help but feel so sorry for myself. I was learning and becoming the red piller I've been trying to become. I recently have joined the military and as time is starting to get closer to my shipping date my frame feels completely destroyed.

I can't help but to think that I'm running out of time with the girls I already know and I'm becoming extremely anxious. I'm starting to act like a beta. I'm starting to hate myself more then I hate the women who are making me feel this inferior.

This is the weirdest sensation I have ever felt before. It's pure pity.

So my question to all my red pillers, have you ever felt like you are running out of time to become the man you always thought?