Hi i am very new to this whole red pill blue pill thing however friend introduced it to me briefly all i know is i want to be more red pilled, i rly believe that it works but i need smth to shift my behaviour that way more, for example is there a book or smth i should read or a youtuber u watched who helped give u more clarity and know what to do

i am 20, have had one gf who i lost my virginity with at 18 and kept until 20 (broke on two years anniversary as i was fk this i dont wanna be so tied down im so young and alrdy wasted two years of uni being in relationship... also i want to fuck my flatmate).... anyway the next day i broke up with my gf, my flatmate broke up w her bf and we fucked ever since, starting from 7 days after broke up w gf (been about 6 months now and i dont live w her anymore) - i think im in way too deep once again but my flatmate is like my bestfriend too but i rly dont wanna be tied down but my mindset isnt quite there and so feel like im just being a pussy - it doesnt help that my flatmate loves sex and is v similar to me in personality and my best friend as i dont wanna lose all these things but i also wanna fuck other girls... what should i do?

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