PROLOGUE

We met at a coffee shop, she is close friend with one of my close friends. I attracted her and she attracted me. We(me, my friend and the girl) hang up the next day and the following day i left the city. We live close but different cities.

We both in a relationship, she has 4-years-old and mine is 9-months. She broke up the guy the next day. I broke up too, nearly 5 days later. She says she fell in love, and my feelings is the same. We talked nearly 10 hours in a day (sounds weird i know, still weird for me) I am falling love after 4 years, so i feel i found four-leaf clover

The next day of my break-up, she came to my city for visiting me. We hang out and go to bed. Some foreplay and oral things happened, when i want to penetrate her, she says she will feel like cheating her ex-boyfriend if i penetrate her. I feel like wtf but replied calmly "its okey, its normal, it was 4-years-old relationship etc." maybe she is a alphawidow, i don't know.

Days chased the days, we talked a lot, i told the date i would come to her city, she freaked out of joy. But the day before i go she started to keep at a distance. Two days later we broke up. I didn't understand, she said she is tired being in a relationship. I act as everything is normal, act like that's ok, np.

I realize that i was alpha before relationship but i act like a beta in this relationship. After break-up, i found myself as an alpha. She called me couple of times, she felt that i am alpha again and she told me that her longing, feelings, burning etc. And told why she left me, and i understand that she just thought I am a beta.

I drinked a lot two days ago and called her, i didn't remember what i said, but it was a bad move i know. She still behave cold btw. i called her yesterday, she gave a busy signal. and 7 hours later she texted "i was not able, is the anything important?"

QUESTION

I don't know if i want this girl anymore in a relationship, i don't trust anymore. But she is so hot and i want her body. How to get her, how to make mdmusti great again?