I’m someone who’s learned about red pill whilst being in a relationship, been with my LTR for 1 year and have a newborn (I get it, I fucked up big time).

I’m a beta mess, I like to kid myself In thinking I’m red pill but I really am not, I care way too much and see my life as nothing with my girlfriend.

I picture my life right now without her and it’s boring and pointless. I understand I’m gonna get a shit ton of hate for this. But I need some advice on we’re to go from here, I know the correct thing to do is break up with her and focus on myself but in my current mindset, I can’t even picture myself doing that.

Has anyone been through anything similar? How the fuck do I snap out of all this? I understand I have extreme oneitis but I’m just looking for a way to end it