I lost my job after corona started and now it's hard for me to find a new one, I live in a small town, I am not experienced nor educated so not many people are willing to hire me (if they are hiring at all). I have the whole day to do whatever but honestly I have a hard time finding stuff to work on, I just don't have any particular interests. Before I could spend the whole day in my work, come back, browse internet or play video games and go to sleep. On weekends I could go on a long walk or something like that. Now I am left in a position with nothing to do, no friends to visit (they all moved out except one). I stopped caring for women, even though I have some sexual energy still active, I am not attractive enough to persuade them to have sex with me, so I stopped bothering with the whole dating life. I visit that one friend from time to time to help him work on his recently bought house. It's nice but I can't do it every day and even then it would be tiresome. I am not a big fan of books, I was okay with reading in the past but I just don't care these days, I only read psychological ones and at some point you realize that reading them doesn't change shit, you have to life a different life to have different results. I'll probably go through some movies I haven't seen but I don't want to spend whole days on binge watching, that's unhealthy (like with binging anything). I lift dumbbells and do push-ups occasionaly just so my body doesn't deteriorate completely but I am not into big lifting, I just don't care.

So I am at this point where I don't have anything to do these days, having no job leaves me alone with my thoughts and nothing else really. I stopped giving a fuck about a lot of things and that makes me unable to think of any activity that could make me really busy.