It disgusts me that my GF is not a virgin. The idea that other guys have cum in her and on her is deeply horrifying and revolting to me. Throughout history this has not been an uncommon sentiment, the convention in almost all civilized cultures up until half a century ago was that non-virgin women were patently unfit for marriage. This probably goes back to some evolutionary psychology stuff about being certain you're the father.

Basically, not only is my GF not a virgin, but I recently learned her history is much more extensive than she lead on. Not just lead on, she blatantly lied about 90% of it.

Don't get me wrong, for plates (to use your guy's lingo), i don't give two shits if she's a virgin. I'm just there to spread my seed and move on. I actually prefer that she not be because there's less emotional attachment on her end and less moral quandary on mine.

So basically, what do I do?

With my GF, I've been going through these bipolar-esque cycles where I feel love for her, then feel disgust and horror at her past, then convince myself I'm not in love with her and only view her as a plate so i can stop the bad feels, the start acting cold and distant towards her, then stop being mad, which allows me to fall in love with her again, cycle repeats.

The obvious TRP answer is break up with her and move on whenever you are less than 100% happy. But then what? If i restrict myself to attractive virgins that aren't virgin out of crazy religiosity, I've limited myself to dating about 0.1% of the western female population.

And maybe, as much as I feel like a cuck for even suggesting this, the problem is me? Maybe I'm not simply allowing myself to feel my natural masculine imperative to pair-bond with a pure woman, maybe I'm just insecure or controlling or whatever r/relationships would say about this.

Or should I just stop being a faggot and worrying about this and stop having LTRs whom I love?

What are your thoughts?