I could really use some help and advice for this one. I'll try to keep info to a minimum, but to give you a context of this dire situation it'll probably be lengthy anyway. Thanks if you stick around to help me out.

So I've kinda always been a beta orbitor who would literally give his life for the woman he loves. I'm a good looking dude (from what I keep getting told atleast). It's only lately that I've been drilling this red pill stuff but I do realize now that the only reason I have gotten along well with women all this time is becuase im tall, dark, mysterious, well dressed and all that stuff - but what in the hell does any of that help when I remind myself of Greg from "The last American Virgin 1982" edition.

Anyway, late last year I met a kickass girl that seemingly had been playing "the game" for years and years. At the time she was with a dude playing in a rock band that was like 7 years older than her. She was treated like shit by this guy, and she was so trashed at the worst point that she didn't believe her ears when I told her that she deserved better. She broke up with this dude and started hanging out with me. We got along quite nicely, and hooked up at parties and slept together soon after.

I truly felt sorry for this girl and the way she had been treated while telling myself she was "different", ignoring all the warning signs and putting her on a pedestal where I was going to be the protector. I wanted to love her, kept telling myself we would be great together. This is where things get complicated. We would be meeting on and off for months at a time, the oneitis steadily grew on me as I couldn't win this girl over. At some point I realized this wasn't good for anything so I cut all contact for a month. She naturally responded well to that and started talking to me again. I didn't really give her any thoughts seeing as I had hard nexted her. One weekend she asks me what I'm doing, and I flat out sent her a pic of some girl I had over. She instantly got jealous and started sending off desperation vibes.

I always had a great time with this girl and she would be my preferred choice if things came to the relationship stage. Thus I started hanging with her again and my oneitis came back. Now, I've kinda given her the edge by being needy and craving her. She gives me super mixed signals these days, meeting me and wanting me to sleep with her, the next few days she would totally ignore me. She would always tell me how much fun she had with me after every evening spent together, but her lust for me is nowhere near what it was when I played it full blown don't give a shit. She tells me she still struggles with feelings and isn't allowing herself to feel and all that common bullcrap they serve you when they aren't fully into you.

I've never been this stuck with someone on my mind and she's truly the only person in my circle that I can do whatever with and still have a good time with, which is why im even debating whether this is worth it or not. My only concern is that if I go fullblown rogue and treat her like shit that she'll just instantly bail seeing as she found me interesting in the first place was because I was the first not to treat her like absolute shit.

What do I do? Do I hard next her til she comes crawling, do I forget her for good?