probably old shit for you. especially for the older veterans. but still im somehow hung up on my first gf. i miss her. we had this special connection. we had awesome dates. Problem was i wanted more. more girls. she felt it and broke up. guess shes over me already. pretty sure after 6 months. had sex with other girls. wasnt that great. her body was perfect. TRP helped me with a lot of stuff but still i want that BP stuff with her. gonna call her sunday evening. guess shes gonna decline but idc. she adored me so much and i muss this confirmation. all other girls are just ok. she was my last truly BP love and guess i just miss that fantasy of a perfect life with a girl. adventures with other girls are fun but it just istn the same. any inspirational storys? will i ever feel the same with an other girl? call me beta n shit idc i miss that safety. lifting for 4 years, girls are often eye fucking me, can easlily flirt and tease. im the only person that i truely love but fuck i want her back.