23/M done with school, has a great job.

I followed TRP a month ago, and I wasn't sure what to make of us. Now I'm just overwhelmed. I don't know how to do this. I use to be scared of being alone, but I'm not anymore. I think it's so hard to have an emotional connection with the opposite sex now, because I just can't get on a different mentality to achieve this.

I need to work on myself more. I have the willpower to do this, I just can't come to grasp that I've been living my life as a fucking lie.

Is there an overwhelmed section of TRP? I know I'm not alone, but is it this hard at first?