Long time lurker, first time posting anything.
I got out of a LTR the first couple days of February, and the moment I was out started hitting up the bars (my 21st was conveniently the night after, graduating in 3 months so easy time at school) and having fun being single. I hung out with a ton of people, had 7 dates set up in the first 48 hours, and had fun using the massive amount of confidence I got from dating a photographer.
From this, I really only kept two girls around. One's outside of the context of this post. The second one's first words to me were: "All I wanted to do was get high last night and get fucked." I told her I could help her with that.
We've been fucking for 5 weeks or so now. She has an IUD (got a new one put in 4 weeks ago), and we've agreed on sexual exclusivity so that we don't have to use condoms. The last 5 years of my life had been LTRs without condoms, so I was maybe a little too eager to get back into a similar arrangement.
Last week her ex from a couple months ago told her that he had tested positive for the clap and had cheated on her in the relationship, so there was the possibility of her having it. She shared the information with me along with a huge slew of apologies for breaking my trust. I didn't care too much, it wasn't intentional or anything. We both got tested, mine came back negative and she's still waiting on the results of her test, but realizing that we're both probably fine. However, now without the STI, she's realizing that the body cramps, cervical pain, and UTIs are probably from the sex we're having.
Today she texted me: "I think I should stop sleeping with you... You're damaging me. I'm too little."
I can totally understand why, she loves it rough. I tie her up frequently, sex normally lasts 30-45 minutes and we'll go three or four times a night, maybe two or three times a week. We have a safe word, and she likes saying no, but says that she likes when I overpower her and take what I want. Her favorite time was when we went so long she was bleeding and I had to carry her to the shower.
I guess what I'm asking is: is she shit testing me? Just setting herself up to be turned on when I end up fucking her tomorrow anyways? She's said that: "I don't date... But if you were staying around for more than three months, things might be different." Is she looking to see if I will spend time with her non-sexually?
Side note: Of all the times we've hung out, we've had sex every time but once. I thought it would be a bad idea to hang out and not have sex, for fear of her starting to think that it would be an okay thing to keep doing. That makes sense, right?
I'm more concerned about how to act if it's a serious comment from her. It's clearly a bad idea to beg for it if she says no, so do I just tell her "well you know why we're hanging out, and if that's not what we're doing anymore, then I'm heading home"? What is holding frame here? Can I propose to just have sex less frequently and start looking for more plates, or is proposing a compromise a bad idea?
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