I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in 2016. Anyways. How do you open up to a woman? Its an alien concept for me to love romantically at this point. I just assume eventual betrayal. In college I was talking to this one chick Sage. All of a sudden she starts to kiss me. I draw back and she says "let me in". My plan is money over bitches but I wont lie. Seeing people i knew getting into relationships and finding love leaves me wondering if i should accept the dark truth that we are all born alone and die alone. How do you become emotionally available?