Ive basically told all my friends to fuck off for various reasons.

*1 said something condecending and i flipped out. Explained to him how and why he is trash and never spoke with him again

*1 ex military friend says he has PTSD but i diddnt beleive him due to all these rambo stories hed tell. Dude loved xanax and i basically told him to kill himself to get rid of PTSD.

*1 is just depressed and he wont try to self improve. I got tired of listening to his self hating speeches and told him to kill himself because hes wasting his youth

*1 friend called out of work and i told him id fire every man less than 30yrs old that called out sick one day and came back to work the next day.

I cant even take the time to call or message family members anymore.

Almost got into a fight at work.

When i get cut off in traffic i cant let it slide anymore, i have to get in front of the guy and brake check him.

Wtf is wrong with me? I want friends but i seem to criticize people around me so much that i cant imagine im fun to be around. Why the fuck is my temper like this? Ive even been thinking about suicide alot lately. I couldnt do it because im just not that depressed but i feel its because im young and bitter. Maybe after a while ill just be old and depressed then ill really begin to weigh the consequences of blowing my lid off.