Thursday Night:Long story short I'm a natural alpha (physical genetics, mental wiring, and socially/culturally somewhat based on my Eastern-valued upbringing at home). I met a girl I liked at Uni a little while back (before discovering RP btw), and all things were fine and dandy given my natural predisposition to end up with a girl being head-over-heels. Ultimately, I ended up freaking out at her in a total beta move when I should've easily seen all of it as a shit test. (At the time was also dealing with a relapse which led me into falling into a trap). Spent a lot of time wondering what went wrong and thats how I found RP. RP bettered even me...

I saved everything to the extent that I INDIRECTLY told her what happened with my little drug-induced episode wouldn't happen again because it wasn't "who I actually was". Gave her the "I get it" (unlike these beta morons) talk, and she also indirectly accepted it. From there I decided the best move would be dread game to really strengthen me in her eyes. So I literally didn't hit her up again until I ran into her at a bar. Now problem is at the bar I was really not having a good situational night (spent a lot of time running around taking care of my friend). I was worrying about some irrelevant things the whole night and literally only had the chance to hug her once and then blew her off before I really had the chance to set my new frame as 95%AF 5%BB. Kinda important to add that since I recovered from my relapse I have gotten in better physical shape and even more testosterone driven and she clearly saw that.

Only problem is I didn't get the opportunity to make enough physical escalations or but mainly ANY rapport for her ATALL besides pissing her off for blowing her off. Now most of you here would see this as a plus, but this is coming off of months of dread game + natural alpha insecurities i put in girls and after she was giving hardcore interest signs the 5 seconds i said hi and hugged her. Also when I left to a different part of the room handling some stuff she danced like a childish skank against her friend but refused all male advances and kept making eye contact.

Friday: So the next day (Friday) I woke up thinking wow i seemed too disinterested she doesnt see me in ANY provider role (obv sees me as an alpha fucks) at all and thats not what I want as a perspective LTR. I figured "fuck it maybe shell be back tonight" (Friday night) since they have a date party during the day here anyways. She ended up not showing up on Friday night (the night after I saw her in person) so i texted her a little betaish but judgemental enough "surprised I didn't see you again since you guys had a date party here earlier"(earlier refers to during the day friday). Never got a reply. Now I'm wondering what to do RP community. No "learn and move on" comments. I will learn and prevail for as long as i deem her worth of my attention that is at the heart of my definition of alpha.