I'm always seeking validation from others, especially from women. I always care what people think of me, always self-conscious. I know it's not helping me in any way but seeking validation is so deeply embedded in my subconscious that most of the time I'm not even aware of it. People think I'm a good person but it's not true, I just don't have courage or I'm not confident enough that's why I act nice. I want a GF just because I can show others," look I have this hot chick", I spend tons of money on expensive clothes, gadgets just to show off but from inside I'm empty. everything I do is based on how others viewing me. How would I live my life differently? I'm tired of living like this. Is there anyone who had gone through it and came out? please share your experience. I want to change my personality.