What's the point in making all this effort? I'm currently 5 months sober from heavy crystal meth addiction and 21, and I'm struggling to keep my head up. I work out 4-6 days a week, eat healthy and all that, but I have no desire to socialize or deal with women and their annoying games. I'm by no means a virgin but I struggle with the why. No matter what I'll have to put up with pointless games to get anywhere in life with them and its such an unpleasant experience. I've always been a bit of a loner but lately I'm prone to extended reclusion.

I'm getting a job in a few weeks and I just called my therapist. I'm just not sure what else to do or look forward to in my life, I just really want to go back to using meth

edit: Any life advice material would be nice, I'm reading up on stoicism and it's helping a bit.