Gentlemen, i may have entered into the LTR. i know many of you are probably thinking “this man is a Genuine idiot.” however i won't disagree.

so now when i met this woman she was doing really well. she had just finished a bodybuilding comp for the first time and decided to move on to something not as flashy or glamorous in fitness, triathlon training. i was pretty impressed by her fitness ambition because i myself have been jacking fucking steal for some time and fell in love with powerlifting. she had a strong father growing up but not much of the mom around. she also came from a strong religious background and used to live by the book. so out of all the plates at the time i kept her and started to pursue my other ambitions, more music and jiu jitsu (BTW if you're a RP guy you need to do this martial art, completely changed my life.)

she was a good blueprint to work on. things have been going well for some time, sex awesome, she still isn’t the best at food but is improving. and the coffee for me in the morning is awesome. there is a price to this relationship that i have now incurred upon and here is where i need guidance from my brothers.

this woman suffers from GAD, General Anxiety Disorder. you may think “stop worrying and just get the fuck over it.” i said the same thing. i've done some research into the psychology and its a bit more heavy than a "fuck it" attitude. this is source of the major problems that could kill the LTR. she injured herself a few weeks ago training and has been out of the gym and pool. she was prescribed medication for the pain, and had a relapse because she is recovering drug addict. i caught her in the first few days because i saw her with a "i don’t give a fuck attitude" and i knew immediately she was not the same. we had a talk and she decided to not take the meds and flushed them. she has been to rehab in the past (she was honest in the beginning about this, not a surprise to me) and understood the ramifications. I’m not worried about the drug related past. the issue here now is the because of the drug relapse and her time off from the gym she reverted back to old way of managing her anxiety, relapsing into bulimia. I had to do some research on the strange mental disorder and what it entails (binge eats to get high, throws up to not get fat). she has been honest with me about it and tells me if i ask. she did good job of hiding it from me for a while but i know she wants help so she told her health provider and myself. she doesn’t do it when i'm with her because she doesn’t have anything to worry about (I’m always driving the ship) but in her work space and on her own she falls into the a small panic attack and binges. she has been to a rehab for this before and recovered, and is scheduled to go next month. .

i guess my question is where do i draw the line with her and bail out? she has done nothing to fuck with my way of life that i can’t control through RP, but this is a bigger problem than just being a man and owning the hell out of it. the part of me that operates by natural selection screams “fucking leave this broken one.” so far i've done many things to support her(rehab her injury, new hobbie etc) and she is working hard till she goes, but the ultimatum is if she can’t figure it out i move on. i don't want to have to leave because she is not not parasitic to my life. i understand though if there is a shift then its time to go.

thoughts? would anyone bail now? would anyone give it time and experiment? so far its been one of my biggest psychological undertakings, more so than one of my friends who has mild psychopathy.

thanks for your comments