Hello asktrp, this is my first time posting in either sub but so far I am grateful for all the literature and camaraderie.

Every couple of nights I meet with some friends at the bar. There's a couple groups of girls who also meet up there frequently and plan to meet us from time to time as well. I generally didn't care for any of them until one night a new a girl started to chill. She was sincere enough and took to my attitude. I grabbed her info but never messaged her because I knew they were going to be there the next night. Somewhere that day or night I caught of a mild cough...

The next day I woke up with a scratchy throat and a slight cough. I didn't think shit of it and assumed I smoked to many cigarettes. That night we met up with the boys and grabbed a round. After my first drink I realized something felt different. Now the girls show up and do their own thing. After a while we mingle and get a little tore up. So the girl I spoke to the night before is sitting on my lap, hanging on me, drinking and smoking with me. Sometime during that night I could tell I wasn't really myself. I noticed I was saying stupid shit in a soft tone and rambling on. She still looked into my eyes with longing and said alluring things but don't really recall how the night ended.

The next morning I woke up nearly dead. Horrible cough and tore up sinuses. I felt fucked up, so I took some meds and avoided the day. The next day I was even worse so I texted the girl to see if she had gotten sick as well. Luckily she hadn't and I left it at that. It took about a week for me to regain some stability and get back to my business. During this time I hadn't really talk to anyone other than to let them know I was sick and wouldn't be doing anything.

The next week rolls around and I am feeling good enough to go out so I meet the boys and some of the girls are already there. The new girl seems a little distant but faintly interested. I didn't push anything until later in the night when I got close to her. She seemed reserved. I let it be and ignored it until the next night. Less of us went out this night but the new girl showed up again. This time she was a lot closer but still hesitant. I tried pushing the boundaries this time because I wanted her to come back to my place. She made up some excuses and this is when I started to wonder.

Synopsis: Met a new girl, got her interested then a couples days later got loopy/sick and said some stupid shit and now she's playing games. How can you regain your SMV in someone's eyes after you've shown them your weakness while being sick? Or is this a lost cause, which I've pretty much already let it go.