I never had a need or urge to make friends. I just like being alone, even though I can easily talk to people and I'm pretty fun. Yet every time I see people having fun without me, especially if there's a girl I like, I envy them. I'm a massive attention whore as well.

Whenever I see a girl having a good time with a dude or a group of friends I feel like I can't even compare. That's the major source of rationalization against approaching girls as well. I feel like everybody has a great life but not me.

When people discuss topics I don't know much about, movies, video games… same feeling. I can't know about everything lol