Me and this girl aged 17, same high school and from Pakistan, I'm born here, she came here when she was 16. I like her cause she looks exotic and she's an intelligent girl. Somewhat rare breed among the girls in my school.

(Edit: We're living in the US)

I used to be her semi-beta semi-orbiter last year.

There were times when she initiated conversations, however I iniciated the majority, I've never seen her talk to another guy. Most of our interactions were positive, teasing, name calling and insulting. I kinod on her but we weren't alone and she resisted. The kino didn't have an affect on her behaviour towards me.

When the New Year Holiday started and ended, I entered with some Red Pill knowledge. I did a hard ghost.

Now, my reputation has increased a lot, I usually make the witty comments in class and getting everyone to laugh. I caught her looking at me quite a few times since I've swallowed the red pill.

I feel like I'm being overly aggressive in my ghosting, especially since I communicate with everyone. I don't even make an effort to look at her anymore (usually when we did make eye contact, she would smile, if that even means anything).

I would think "oh, if she cared she would go out of her way and do something like I did" but now I realise we've entered this weird limbo where we're both kinda ghosting each other because we've been kinda ghosting each other. Plus she's a female, a hijabi and is constantly with her girl-friends.

Should I give her a second chance and lower my ghosting just a bit? In a way of telling her

"hey, I don't hate you. I still would like to fuck you"

but doing will have me lose my frame and tell her

"It's cool. Watch, in 2 months I'll be orbiting you again."

This is really pointless cause if anything, writing all this just made me like her less now.

I don't know why I made this. If anyone can at least tell me what to do so I won't have the feeling to write this again, that'd be nice.