I'm struggling pretty hard on this one. I always wonder how I am perceived, and ist sucking on my energy. When I am around my friends everything is fine. They enjoy me, I enjoy myself and i think im a pretty cool guy. But as soon as other People are around and near us, i wonder if they judge and thus i act different.

I know it's pretty ridicoulus and my self worth doesn't depent on them, but my subconscious mind seems to hold the upper Hand.

I think this roots back to my mother and Grand-mother (which i grew up with, parents got divorced). They make sure not to polarize others and thus stand out/make themselves attackable. I'm pretty vulnerable to criticism too.

Any suggestions on how to overcome this one?