BACKGROUND

I'm a 17-year-old male from a poor family who has been a good achiever in school for years. However, since last year, my grades have dipped and I have fallen into a general low point in my life where nothing seems to go right for me.

Early Life

During my younger years (11-15), I always received compliments from both genders on my looks and academic achievement and I would have an easy time with attracting girls but due to being a nice guy, I end up either getting friend zoned or repelling them. I was always a skinny nerd who was socially awkward in some sense and still am. I have always been really shy where I would freeze up when talking to attractive girls then beat myself about it later. At 15, I found a really cool group of guys at school in my year group who were pretty much alphas and had so many girls. I learned from them a lot of things I came to learn here at TRP.

Currently

Everything in my life has gone downhill. I am now in my final year of high school and I have no idea what career path to pursue and college applications have already opened. Most of my friends know what they want and are on the path to getting it. I am skinny fat with acne which I have been working on with diet and recently the gym. My grades are mid 60's currently and I have no drive academic wise though I do my best to get all my work done. I don't know what my talents are, if any and I generally feel like I have no purpose. As it relates to girls, I have regressed. In my life, I have had only 4 relationships where 3 have cheated on me blatantly (my first girlfriend cheated with my cousin). I have a girlfriend now but she has gone to college about 2 hours away from where I am and we have seen each other twice in 4 months. I have recently rediscovered TRP and am implementing it into my life.

I have been trying to make changes but nothing seems to work. I, however, will keep on this path as this is my only hope.

The Inhibitors

The following are the areas I would wish to improve on

1) Body - I have recently saved up for a gym membership and went only once, my parents are however banning me from the gym due to them saying it was a fiscally irresponsible move (I saved for months out of my allowance) and that I did not discuss it with them (I discussed this topic several times for months and was rejected by them each time).

2) School - No motivation as I see no end goal. I

3) Career - I don't know what I want to do college and time is running out and my grades are not the most outstanding. Despite this, I still do my best.

4) Girls - I have severe approach anxiety and I've been labeled a nerd at school (which is hard to change). I have tried going out to work on this but as soon as I leave home I have to return due to constant phone calls and belittlement by my parents when I get home. Evidently, I don't go out much. I am however encouraged to go to church and church events

5) Personality - Due to being at a low point, I believe that I have developed a 'class-clown' or jester-like persona at school where I do weak puns and poor jokes and have developed a reputation for it amongst the students. No one respects my opinion nor me. I am constantly made fun of as well.

6) Other - I am constantly put down by my parents but also will get motivation speeches from them which really don't help (I am compared with my achieving friends in these and asked why I can't be like them.)

TL;DR Lost in life trying to find my path but with each thing I try, I am met with huge resistance.

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Any advice on how to get out of this situation is highly appreciated. Thank you.