Peace to you & yours TRP Fam,

The situation here is one that I will give a little bit of historical context to frame the circumstance that I'm in so that I may get the best insight on how to move forward.

Im in my late 20s, and I recently got out of a relationship with a girl who is 2yrs younger than me that I met in college. She was intrigued am attracted to me due to the ALPHA traits that I naturally exhibited. I was extremely focused, confident, fly, and knew how to articulate myself at the dro of a dime, and said WHATEVER the hell I wanted. I recall when around when I 1st met her & we were with a group of friends talking about relationships & I was talking about how I didn't need a relationship. And woman don't do anything but slow me down, I'm focused on me & my mission. I'm an attractive guy, so when an attractive girl hears that coming from an attractive guy, her ears peak. I was on her radar.

Long story short, we hooked up and I smashed her the 2nd time we went out (she invited me over). We continued seeing each other. From the outset, I had complete control over the relationship. She was wayyy more into me than I was into her, even tho she was & still is extremely beautiful. I passed all the shit test worth flying colors. The seX was amazing. She always wanted it. I dominated her in bed. We always had it.

At some point the shift of power started 2 happen, and I fell in love with her. Deep love. Like the kind where you where you almost can't figure out what is happening because you are so caught up in it. She was the very first love of my adult life. I had never experienced anything like it.

A year-and-a-half into the relationship she gets accepted into a college that is a couple of hours away from where I am. At this point I feel s*** test that I didn't even know where s*** test. She starts talking about how she thinks we should take some time apart. We end up breaking up but doing the on-again-off-again sex thing. After a while of being at her new College she tells me that she's met someone else and that she's interested in him. They are now in a relationship, bUT she just sent me this text...

"I don't want to be like how I was anymore. 😔 I miss you. I still think of u. I still read our old texts sometimes. I still smile at your little drunk Facebook messages. But I'm so wrong. I'm still in a relationship and regardless, I made a commitment to someone else's heart. I messed that up so badly in the past. I wish I could take it back. Our love might've lasted had I not did what I did. But I don't want to do it ever again. I felt awful about it the first time. I still feel the guilt when I'm writing u. But I don't want to hurt anyone else DeAngelo. And I love the man I'm with- despite the problems we may have he is a really good man and he deserves better from me."

What the hell does all that shit really mean? I have an idea, but I need some real VETERAN TRP help. She's obviously not fully happy with this guy & still wants/loves me bUT is scared. Should I completely move on? Or should I smash her again? I have a few other plates that I'm spinning with a 7, 8, & a nice 9. But this girl is the only one that gives me problemd because I EMOTIONALLY INVESTED IN HER LIKE A DUMBASS!!

Lace me wit some hardcore insight fellow TRP Vets!!

Peace!