Hello. I don't consider that my story is important, just what I have to say.

This may come as too harsh and maybe you won't agree. That is ok. Just give it a thought and use what it's useful for you.

Quick and dirty: Love is just ego inflation. If you have self-love, you don’t need it, you ego is just fine and you don’t need external approval.

Detailed: Love for the other person chemistry, because she is cool and chill, will make you feel slightly good, it’s a super soft feeling, almost mental instead of physical. But if you have nothing of that yourself, if you are not happy on you own, you have no chill, you don't feel cool, you don't love yourself… Then "love" becomes a parasite that needs to feed on the other person compliments and approval of yourself, so you can feel good about yourself, so you can feed you own ego. That won't be a healthy relationship and you would be devastated when she leaves you (because she will, you are acting all low value on yourself).

Take a note that you real worth isn't the same as your perceived worth of yourself. You may be a handsome rich CEO and don't have self-love, it's actually more common that what it should.

For any healthy relationship (of any kind) you first need to love yourself, have so much to offer to yourself, be so full of motivation, so full of dream so full of self-love, so full of life; that what the other person has to offer to you pales in comparison with what you can offer yourself. Then sharing all that you have, or with who you decide to share it, makes no difference, all that matter is having yourself.