Hey, im 19 and the job situation and housing prices in my area are fucked for people at my age. Been looking for a job for months, to no avail. I am still trying my best to look for a job so i can save up and move out. My father has never shown me true love, fighting back will get me kicked out because in reality the last couple months of me at the gym wouldnt end well for him (my mom would let him kick me out)

The issue I wouldnt say is that he is physically abusive(been physically abused punched since i was a kid), it is the fact that he is physically abusive and strict over things that dont really need it. My mom enables his behaviour even though i know she knows its wrong (hes hit her before). Its like he wants me to be a beta bitch, for example if i go gym after 9pm ( as a 19 year old i wish i wasnt kidding) he wil punch me in the face when i arrive back at 11. not that it stops me but it does piss me off because it hurts. i cant fight back because then id probs get kicked out ( i need to focus on my education). I didnt really go out a lot till the last couple months, so if i hit the club and arrive at 4-5am... i get punched repeatedly. i would say my increased social skills where i can now get women and make good friends are worth it but it is wearing me down and does cause me to break down sometimes. Or he will go the extra mile and be like u need permission to sleep at my house ( even tho my mom pays for it) and yank the blankets.

How do I cope? I still want to do the things i want to but how would you say i can get used tot he punches and violent behaviour without affecting my mental state. i have fought back but everytime i do he gets even more angry and i know it wont end well for him ( or me id get kicked out)so i just take it in. What to do?