I am stricken with paranoia over the n-count of a girl I'm dating. She said she had sex once before me, I believe her but what's racing through my mind is a) is she counting blowjobs and handjobs and b) could that have been a threesome, foursome, gangbang?

I feel so mentally sick just stressing out about this... like I'm going to vomit. And it all stems from TRPs teaching. Like I just want to text her these questions to clarify, but I know that's fucking retarded. I need to build abundance I guess.

How fucking stupid is it to worry about a potential future LTR having had a threesome in the past with no actual indication that she did? Am I fucking retarded?