I've been imersed in the RP community and read the sidebar at least 100 times.I've been reading TRP for about 7-8 months now.The last time that I actively tried to read the sidebar everyday was 4 months ago.Since then I felt like I don't need to read the sidebar because I know it all (I know i fucking don't).I feel like I'm turning a bit beta.I've been in monk mode before that and my social skills,body,mind has improved immensely.I've read the sidebar in monk mode and like 5 books(more focused on my goal:football/soccer). I'm slowly forgetting how to act like a red-piller and don't really have the motivation and self discipline to read the sidebar and top posts consistently.

I don't want to be billy beta.How do I start acting like a red-pilled man again?