So we are together for like 9 months. Everything was great until our last month. Normally we live in the same dorm but I am in another city for 1.5 months because of the termtime.

One month ago during one of our phone call sessions I wasn't feeling like listening her and she felt this closed the phone. A discussion between us, she said you don't love me etc. Then I went to her city for a week (that was already planned before our fight), everything is fine we had no problem.

Then after one week till two days ago (2-3 weeks) she went crazy, came with so many little things which were not problem but seems like they were after our fights. She just couldn't see all positive things in our relationship and became negative and shit (says I don't care her, she can't believe I love her etc.)

Two days ago she threw some shit again and I called her, yelled something like "If you keep doing this shit, I will leave you! This way or another, think about it." She was crying like crazy and saying I am bad and brutal right now, making her feel like she is my pet etc. but she seemed like she understands me and takes a step back until I go too far and say "I really don't love you right now". Then she says something like "How can I believe you will again? What if you can't love me again? How can I wait till you do?" and we end up breaking up right after.

Normally I would go no contact from there because tomorrow our termtime is over and we are in the same dorm again. But I thought I went a little bit too far saying "I don't love you", so I believed she can't come back even tho she wants to, because she thinks I don't love her now. Maybe I just made some excuses and became a beta I really don't know. But one day after (also yesterday) I ended up writing so many fuckin long texts about how bad I feel, wanna talk with her Monday and I love her and shit. (fuck me ikr) and she said like 4 times "I don't wanna talk". So I wrote Ok, I see. and never wrote something again.

Now I am not sure if I should go and talk her pretty straight forward about our relationship, why I yelled because I saw shit wasn't working etc. So not crying like a bitch but like a man face to face while keeping my frame or go for no contact and see if she comes back?

btw. Breaking up was not my intention. I just wanted to cut her bullshit off but I made a mistake doing that.

So what do you suggest guys? I trust you.