Ive been in a 5 month LDR with a girl across rhe country and shes had a sudden change of heart. I can tell, acting distant, stopped being sweet and submissive, just way less into me. She liked me cause i was so “mysterious and hard to read” but once i let her into my life (this is the first girl ive ever dated and only person i let get this close to me) it seems like she was like “welp, mission accomplished” . She saw my protective guard and wanted to break it down. She saw me as a puzzle. Now that she thinks shes solved it shes lost interest.

The worst part about it is letting someone get close to me like that, meet my family etc and then be able to read me like that made me lose my whole confidence, sense of identity / self , and emotional independence that attracted her to me in the first place.

And i used to be alpha as fuck, indifferent, never thought i could catch feelings for a female. I literally cannot stand the person i feel like right now i just want the old me back

Can i ever get this person back?

Weve barely talked this week. I called and asked about her stance and wherher she wants to break up and she said “i dont know “ kind of like she wants to but doesnt want to say it-then made an excuse to get off the phone telling me she’ll call me later and never called me later.

Would i feel better rush breaking up with her or giving her space / time to think and the letting her break up with me?

Part of me thinks i should give her space and stop talking to her and she might come running back but fuck that. If i have to manipulate shit just to try to keep a girl then im a fucking cuck. I deserve a girl who adores me not some bitch who “doesnt know if she wants to be with me”

Worst part about it is comparing hwr now to how she was in the beginning when she met me. She was so into me it was insane. She hit on me , made the first move etc. She literally forced herself into my life and is now leaving?? Fuckin cunt