I try to be social, or build circle with people, but I don't stick in their heads. I feel like I'm actually getting worse at socializing instead of better. I haven't had any sort of success for almost a year now, and I'm not sure what I can do about it. Whenever I think about talking to people I think about how awkward it could be, or that because I live in a medium-sized community that I'll get a reputation that'll make my life even harder. I can't even analyze my failures and figure out what went wrong. I need a major change.