Dear TRP and askTRP,

I am having issue with myself.

You know I am 18, had few relationships, had sex, no onetitis, but kinda expect the ONE.

I never had good relationship with my family, especially parents. With distant ones relationship is much better.

But I've dreamed always of warm little house with 4-5 children and a wife. I came here not because of relationship, but because I noticed trend of westernization of my country, and I've always dreamed of living in the America. Now that I see shit what's going in the USA on mgtow and the red pill it's hard. My dream shattered like a glass when dropped.

I can't stop seeing what's going on, I can't unread and unlisten things related to the red pill and way of women.

This always was my second dream, the first one also shattered. And now that I read the red pill I am sure she will cheat on me anyways (literally one of my biggest fears).

Is this normal? Will this change? Are there ways I am unaware of?

Big thanks.