I’m a 23 year old virgin, and I’ve always lied about banging bitches all my life. I actually used to get bitches online, they were not real life approaches but I still can “prove” that I’m about that life by simply sending sexting screenshots or their nudes to my friends lol. I don’t even wanna deal with tinder and etc. now.

Whatever, being a 23 year old virgin looks bad but I don’t think that’s my main problem. I’ve been depressed for a very long time and it’s keep getting worse. My anxiety keeps getting worse too. I lost hella weight, gave up on most of my vices and I get good grades but I still look miserable. Like I genuinely am an asshole but not in a good way that makes people love and hate you. I’m 6’0 and kinda skinny and I’m balding, but I dress good and I have a good facial structure, a strong jawline with a nice beard. I take care of myself. My looks are not the case but I feel like people just sense that something is wrong with me, I look mentally unstable and unapproachable.

I only feel normal with alcohol buzz because I don’t overthink when I’m drunk. I got PTSD from my experiences with girls and it shows. They’ve turned me into a paranoid, sad and just a weird individual.

My question is, should I just go fuck a hooker or what? The people around me sound like pussies when I ask for an advice that’s why I’m here. What should I do? What do you think? I feel so worthless and burnt out it's crazy.