I'm feeling very tired now. But I think about it. I take a deep breath and think about it.

I've been hanging out with a friend for two years now, we smoking weed together and doing crazy shit

But lately it's not the same. The guys criticizing me and he be talking shit in front of other people. Accuses me of doing beta shit with women while he doesn't even know what I do currently. Yeah, he Has just seen me after months of absence. I was away at other places plating 6 women.

Dudes freaking me out, I come to see him after months and he doesn't even come for a beer only occasionally smoking lots of it, and when some other random friend comes for three days we go out. The dudes affecting me.

This shit makes me feel like I'm unwanted or something. I've had lots of trouble lately like losing a family member and shit and I've gone dark. My thoughts are poisoned with what is right wrong true false I'm feeling distorted....

I waste money and time on people and places I often think I don't wanna be. What should I do? These people I feel are not helping me grow anymore. We only share one interest smoking sessions.