As an asexual male the only thing I truly desire from a relationship is love but women don't have the capacity to "love" men as men love women (women can only "love" children as taught by TRP).

Up to now I have done nothing to move forward in the relationship department of my life because I have no driving force (sexual desire for most I assume) strong enough to outweigh the forsee costs/effort (getting into the top 20%, going to bars, gaming women, etc.). I am planning on bettering myself for my own health and benefit but that will be after college as soon as I get back to college when I am out of my current family situation for numerous reasons.

Other than being a high value male for myself to enjoy being high value, what is the point? Since women cannot love as men can love, then I don't see the point in seeking a relationship with a woman other than for validation/emotional support.

Am I thinking about this the wrong way? I have swallowed the pill, realized it as the instincts I was taught to subdue, but am having trouble internalizing it in real life. Is this the stumbling block on my world view?

Edit: to be more clear, what I want from a relationship is emotional connection and understanding. Is this too much to ask for from a woman(who will shit test, etc.)?