Hello mates, I posted on another sub earlier, and somebody pointed me to TRP techniques. I’m very new to the concept and could use some advice on where to start.

I'm a bit of an anomaly here. I've been in a long-term relationship with one woman for 6 years, and sometimes I feel that I hit the jackpot. However, I don’t see that lasting forever.

She was a student from mainland China when we met in college. I noticed her because during the many classes we took together, she always sat at the front rows prepared to answer prof's questions. I was no Chad and she was not like other girls I knew. She was extremely diligent about studying, humble and well liked by all her professors. I brought her as a friend to my family's Sunday dinners, and we started dating soon afterwards.

We've taken breaks during the years due to being long distance. There was not much drama, and we always split the expense (dates, travel etc.). During the years, she started using make-up, working out and grew a lot more attractive and confident.

We are both in late 20s and moved in together in 2016, then married in 2017. There was no proposal, we just unilaterally decided to become official. She 'would rather spend money on traveling than on wedding', so we got married in the city hall. Upon moving in together, she immediately transferred her share of one year's worth of rent to our joint account. She also paid for most of the furniture with no complaint as I was in between jobs and tight on cash. It helps that she has a million+ dollar brokerage account (90% was gift from her parents), and she actually put that into our joint account. Although to my understanding, she would want it back if we divorce. The past Christmas, she gifted half of the equity in an investment property to me 'as a gesture to provide a sense of security' (her words).

I almost feel she is the complete opposite of women described on the other platform: she actually lives the 'I love you but don't need you' mindset. She is financially independent, dependable, well loved by my family, encourages me to socialize with female colleagues and plays fair in the relationship. She even cleans the toilet from time to time.

Since browsing stories of more experienced men, I come to realize that after some time, she might grow out of her idealistic 'love' bubble and eventually expect me to accumulate wealth equivalent to hers. After all, it’s highly unlikely that I found an unicorn. I am confident about my career, but I may never bring my net worth to her level without some luck or large inheritance. She has been applying to MBA programs and will likely get admitted by one of the top schools. I feel pathetic thinking that she might meet other men better than me in school and cheat on me.

According to TRP’s rule, I’m definitely the one who has less leverage in our relationship. This is a shitty feeling. I don’t fear a divorce, and I might actually gain financially if it should happen. But I fear I might lose my dignity overtime, feeding on my own fear that she might eventually cheat on me with a better man.

We never discussed these dynamics, and I make efforts to stay in control and dominant in our relationship. However, it’s been difficult due to her being objectively smarter. I am improving my SMV, and She was happy to see me started hitting the gym. She knows that I go to the gym with female colleagues, but she seems to think it’s normal. At the beginning of our relationship, she would compromise to some kinky sex, but in the past year she has been very frank about not liking being in submission and often gets turned off when I tried to initiate kinky sex. It seems she’s fine with just vanilla sex. She’s never been a very sexual being since we met, and I think that has to do with her culture and upbringing. For one, she was a virgin until 22.

As you can probably tell, I didn't have many relationship experiences. I had one serious relationship before her. and I was her first serious relationship. It’s hard to find a place to discuss these male specific issue without being judged for having ‘toxic masculinity’. I appreciate all replies. Thanks.