I just can't seem to completely swallow the pill. It's like it's getting stuck in my throat every time. I've been fucking this girl for a few weeks now. I see her as a fun experience. She has implants, sucks my dick all the time, and generally great in bed. We haven't done anything serious, or gone on a date or whatever, but she texts me quite often, in which i often reply late and show moderate interest. I feel like i can call her over whenever i want my dick wet. I do however see zero LTR potential in her, as she seems like an airhead and her looks are quite average if not for the makeup. After struggling for a long time to achieve this, i finally have a "regular fuck". I went out last weekend, and when i didn't get any luck with other girls, i just texted her and took her home and i got laid. Seems good right? Even though we haven't done anything serious yet, i can sense she's starting to get quite comfortable with me, and she did suggest we do something in public once and stuff. I'm still on dating-apps, and i started talking to this cute blonde. After a bit of small-talk i asked her to meet me, and she said she would love to, and told me to let her know time and place. So, i have one girl i'm having sex with, and another planned date! But the problem is i can't seem to get rid of that beta-tendency of feeling pity towards the girl i'm sleeping with, and i can't shake off the feeling that i'm gonna hurt her and create drama. It's pathetic to think like that, but it's so deeply ingraved in me. How do i stop these bitchy beta-tendencies and finally not give a fuck and just do it?