August 2017- Traveling a lot, in good shape, low stress= 3 or so girls interested but wasn't over my BPD ex so I didn't get with them September-November 17- Get back with said BPD ex, get hurt again (shes now blocked everywhere) Nobody interested afterwards sad and depressed

Dec-Feb- Rebuild my life pretty quick, Had 2 plates, other girls interested too. High confidence despite not working out due to a busy high profile internship.

March- Plates fade, One girl interested but shes looking for something more serious and I can't do that with my emotional issues, Back in school high stress. Haven't worked out due to injury but returning soon.

It seems to go from one extreme to another? Is this just cause of my past issues, or cause of my seasonal depression? Its crazy to be on top of the world one month and a pure beta the next.

Fuck I mean I failed a shittest at a party last night. Girl asked me if I have a girlfriend and instead of being cocky I just said no im single. Which she then said im a pussy bitch with no conversation skills in front of everyone? I think I recovered fine tho cause I asked her if she had a girlfriend and it kinda caught her off guard.