i know. oneitis, sitebar, lift, whatever. i do all this + nofap, coldshowers, meditation, journaling - selfimprovement since 3 years.

she was my first gf. im quit good looking, kind of retarded but if i force myself to be pretty good at soxialicing.

met her at a uni party for the new semester tonight. she came to me, hugged me, even did this kind of thing when i walked past her where she was like 'woah omg' while touching my arm. - lifting for 4 years.

i want her back. its been 9 months and for me shes different. for me shes perfect.

questing: we talked, smalltalk, "how is your dog" - "how is your cat".

i said "do you remember when i was licking your asshole?" i do things like this to make people uncomfortable. as i said im retarded but thats me and she used love it. anyway, good Response. said she remembers a lot of things we did and that i was the best dick in her life. i know what you think." she wants attention" "shes lying" bla bla. sai what yiu want. she meant it. said she wants me to walk proud through life because of my dick. idc she said it and added i should not misinterpret it. like i should not hope that this means we could get back together.

why does she say she loved my dick?

im gonna call her tomorrow, tell her i want to chill with her. be totally hones. no games. no trp shit. im gonna tell her want i want, either she wants me or not.

i want her. no other girl. no ons. i want her.