Hey there guys, appreciate the feedback I'm gonna receive from ya'll.

Quick background. Introduced by a friend, instant attraction from both parties, exchanged numbers and continued texting/calling for a whole month. She invites me out to a coffee (I'll take this as an IOI) and I agree (was too busy doing other shit to go out with her before that).

So my 1st date with her went, well, pretty good. Took her to some places in the city she'd never been before, and she seemed to really enjoy it. Was a bit scared of taking her up a tower's scenic tour, but mixed in some kino/light comfort and she calmed down and started to like it.

Afterwards, as we're walking in the park, I try holding her hand again (as I did when we 1st saw each other that day, she moved in to kiss and hug me and we held hands for a few minutes as we walked). She pushed my hand away nd gave me a pat on the shoulder with a little giggle. At this point I'm like WTF??

Me: "damn, shutting me down already" (said jokingly)

Her: "no, it's just that I don't like public displays of affection"

Me: "who said it was PDA? Was just making sure you wouldn't get lost haha"

We continued and got coffee, some light talking and banter in between. At this point I'm super eager to kino her whenever I can get away with it, so subtle touches on her back to move her in my direction as I lead. We get our coffees and sit on the grass in the park, and this is where shit gets real (forgive the incoming betaness).

We start talking about personal lives, figured it would be good to get to know her even more. She's had a messed up life it seems, child of divorce, had a very bad breakup early this year, fights with her family etc. Usually hearing all that would put me off, but I actually pitied her and kept listening. She talked quite a bit about her ex and how he cheated on her, but I did my best to steer clear from that.

I figured, hey since she's being super vulnerable with me, maybe I should do the same too, congruence and shit. So I tell her more stuff about me (beta mistake #1, should have kept more mystery there). I then basically tell her I like her and have feelings for her (ultimate beta mistake #2, why the fuck I did this I have no fucking idea. I never do this, I don't even tell girls about myself). She smiled and told me she likes me too. I figured in my head "fuck that was close, I could have blown it". So I kino her while we're sitting, rubbing her thigh and arm.

Me: "I wanna kiss you right now, but I don't know if I should" (beta mistake ultra #3. Should have just went for it, fucking oneitis....)

Her: "let's just take things slow clozedcasketz. We're both so similar and we share so many goals (very true btw)."

I give her a blank look on my face, when she laughs and caresses the side of my face and says,

"Don't worry I'm not friendzoning you. I really like you, but I'm just suffering from all these trust issues because everything I've been through. I'm not saying I don't trust you, because I do, but I can't afford to get hurt anymore"

Me: "I don't wanna get hurt either, but all I can say is this. Talk is cheap, and I can't wait to show you for myself, but I would never hurt you. I respect you so much to do that (thermonuclear beta mistake #4. I mean....fuck I can be so beta with a crush...)"

HOWEVER, as soon as I said that, I could have sworn she teared up a bit but she quickly brushed it off and kept talking normally. Decided not to press the matter, as I might be invoking negative emotions. We proceed to catch the train back home, mostly silence apart from her showing me pictures of her siblings (which she could not shutup about during the date, but I didn't mind.) She kisses me on the cheek goodbye and gets off at her stop

Ok guys, ready for the inevitable roasting from my beta mistakes (hey, at least I took the liberty of highlighting them for ya'll hahaha). But what should I do? Not getting the K close hurt like shit, and as soon as the date ended I felt like I already missed her. It was so bad that my FWB wanted me to come over hers last night, and made up some lame ass excuse to not go (probably biggest beta mistake of all, but hey who's counting right? Lmao)

Suggestions as to how to handle it from now on? I really like her, and I wanna be with her.