I know what you're thinking from other post I've read on here asking for advice on how to get rid of oneitis. The thing here is I want to be infatuated with just one person. I'm tired of all the one night stands and honestly they're taking their toll and I'm having some serious mental backlash from them.

I seen pretty much the WORST in girls but I could never get too close to one because I wasn't truly that interested. I just used them for sex sadly.

The first girl I ever talked to did a mental twist on me and shaped how I viewed people, she ridiculed me for being a virgin and that made me think sexual appeal=a person's value. As an attempt to show myself I'm worth something I slept with 17 girls and even after all of that went back to that one girl and played games. It ended with her cussing me out and being angry at me for basically rubbing it in her face that she could've had me before I turned into a man whore.

So now I'm stuck feeling dull and just not interested in girls anymore. I just long for that feeling of caring for someone If I'm capable of it.

Any one want to give advice?

Fyi I just turned 20M last month