I'm 25 years old male without much success with girls or society. I'm socially awkward and troubled. I'm taking anti-depressants and am regularly seeing a therapist. I feel desperate and worthless at social aspect of life. I'm desperate to get validation. At least I have a decent job and progressive determination to improve myself.

At pastime my only amusement is going out solo. Actually it's distressing and desperate, but I view it as training. I go out to approach girls, even thought the idea makes my stomach crawl. Sometimes it's easier and sometimes it's harder. Sometimes I even turn back home at bars door. Sometimes I just feel lost in the club. But I try to forget all my distorted beliefs and build temporal confidence and positive aura.

Once I have psyched myself up, I try to approach a lot and not give a fuck about rejection. I get rejected a lot and just move on. I make bold moves like flattery and psychical contact to get girls attention. I approach all chicks from mediocre to hot. Ugly or fat girls I don't approach. Most of the time some girl turns out to be responsive and open for further interaction, even hotties. Few times girls have approached me, even thought I'm low testo guy. Once I have girls attention, I tell her flatteries and try to make observations and questions about her. I try to scout for common interests. I also smile with teeth and try to stay cool (even thought I feel strong psychical urge to run away).

After training approaching for about dozens of times, I feel less anxious about it. The problem is, I couldn't keep the girl interested and I start to panic. It gets awkward and either of us comes up with excuse to leave. I don't know how to make girl laugh and comfortable. I have been stuck here for long without any progress. I'm not sure what mental barriers I should break to further progress at my ambition to become a player.