I went out with my friends tonight. It's been almost 6 m9nths since I've had sex. I feel like I'm getting desperate. I know, that's bad and now that I type it out I'm kind of disappointed in myself but it's what drives me to become more confident, I guess or more willing to take chances, whatever you want to call it.

Anyway, my goal was to take a girl home but would he happy with at least talking to one or getting a number. Note that my new found confidence, desperation aside, is actually my loss of 30 lbs recently. I have another 70 to go but that's a different story.

The friends I went with were people I have known for a long time. We made the joke that she should do the how I met your mother's haaaaave you met, Jesse? She did that a few times, it was funny.

After drinking we went to get pizza. Not even sure what prompted me, I put you arms around a girl in front of me, there were mutual friends from both groups. She seemed into it so I just ran my fingers over her belly and just kinda on her hips. My friend saw this, did the have you met, blah blah blah, are you single and do you want his number? Oh sure, so we switched numbers.

In my mind, I just touched this girl that I've never met on her belly AND just got her number so horny me decided to step it up a notch and kiss her shoulder and neck. She responded well and turned to kiss me in line where we made out a little in the line. Of course my friend was like super wtf and how did that just happen?

It was kinda weird after that and we didn't really talk while eating. I tried to put my arms around her again and just got weirdness. Regardless, best night I've had in a long while!