So I recently lost my virginity at 20 years old by applying what I learned in this sub, and slamming on the gas pedal. I was congruent and in charge. I regularly hooked up with this girl and she thought I was a sex God. For two months I was in heaven, doing great in my social circle, finally getting my romantic life off the runway, and woke up each day with a burning focus to cease the fucking day.

Now summer is over and I'm back in college. My social circle is weak here. I rarely go out, and I live by myself in a small studio apartment. My first relationship turned into long distance and I became more needy in my new environment. Texting and Skyping her became the only thing I liked about my day. I visited her and she ended the relationship, saying the normal "it's not you it's me" bullshit.

Now I'm back to my old habits of wasting time playing video games, watching TV and sleeping for 12 hours at a time. My diet is also terrible. What's worse is I see my ex constantly updating her fb status/snapchat with her surrounded by dudes, always partying, and she's having the time of her life.

I thought that once I got the virginity thing off my back then life would be so much better. Now I'm just filled with bitterness and jealousy.

This sub has immensely helped my ego. And now that I'm plumitting into this downward spiral, back to my old ways, I'm thinking I need the lessons and the testimonies more than ever.