Hello everyone out there. First of all I'd ask you to not judge me by any mistake I may have made while typing this, as english isn't my first language.

So .. Recently I've started reading about pickup and everything about it, learned some body language bases and shit, but I have a major problem restraining me to "get in the field". I just can't have a talk with a women.

I maybe should give you some information about who I am as it may help .. First of all, I just turned 20 last week. When I was younger (about 14-16), I always was surrounded by girls hitting on me, and always acted in a good way to seduce them, naturally, and since I'm a pretty good looking guy, it helped. In the late 16th year I got depressed alot and just didn't get out anymore, I didn't spoke to anyone in months and thus I lost all of my female friends since then .. From there I started to get frustrated every time I'd have a girl in front of me, without knowing the reason. Since then, I met some girls via my male friends, but none of them became a close friend to me, because every time I or them start a conversation, I just answer to their questions by some short answers and just look away awkwardly, 'cause I just get nervous and never find anything interesting to say.. On the other side, I've no difficulty in making my place in a new group of guys, I can always speak freely and with confidence in front of guys, but as soon as I start to talk to a woman, I just lose it and seem to repulse the girl instead of attracting her .. I have no problems with opening a girl either, but after that my body language (as well as my voice, my maneer of speaking) becomes shit and I just can't go forward in a conversation and thus never getting close to create a connection and just end up walking away assuming my defeat.

I'm currenty running my fourth year as a single, and no intime interaction with a girl. I'm just getting tired of it, and I'd truly appreciate any piece of advice you guys could give me and thank you in advance.