I'm 18 years old and the thought that I'll never experience love, affection, sex, or hell even starting a family scares me a ton. I'm sure I'll hear that I'm young and shouldn't be worrying about this stuff, but when you get made fun of constantly for never dating and having sex anyone to the point where you start lying and saying you're saving it for marriage is bad. I also have Aspergers, as I've mentioned here before which somewhat makes me feel like women are on a totally different planet from me. I feel like I'm decent looking: I'm 6'5 and I've been told by multiple people on Reddit that I look like Luke Kleintank from the man in the high castle. I'm really into history and politics, as well as computers. I'm going to a small rural college in Iowa in the fall and my goal is to get into Notre Dame grad school for poli sci. I got goals and I try to be interesting: I spent a month living in japan and I represented Wisconsin at a conference for a youth organization in Washington DC. I'm friends with many people in my school and stuff, I'm also not utterly repulsive to girls and have got invited to do stuff with them but not in a romantic way or anything. I've fucked up every chance I get and I have no confidence at all as a result. Every time I see a cute girl I automatically think she's gonna hate me and it's a complete waste of time to even talk to her. I honestly feel like I'm destined to die without even dating anyone or experiencing love. I feel like giving up, I'm just someone girls don't wanna date and never will be I guess:(