So I was in a relationship for one month in August. After she dumped me, I've become more alpha but the beta shows up at the worst of times. Granted I have fucked 5 girls since then, I've been finding myself doing ANYTHING for sex, and getting attached. Just last week I paid for a motel and drove 3 hours to fuck this girl. I guess I'm just desperate for companionship. I've been on RedPill for a little now, and I've definitely learned that I'll do better on my own and that women aren't anything special. But lately I've been craving something more than just a fuck or fling, I actually want to be with someone. The girl I had sex with is actually pretty fucking cool, not to mention really nice and intelligent. I think it's just infatuation and not genuine feelings however. We're both college students, only she's a sophomore and I'm a junior. She goes to school 3 hours away, and she had told me that she wouldn't try a long distance relationship. I never asked her to date me or anything, it was just part of a conversation we were having.

I know I'm just sort of rambling on, but I feel lost and I'm unhappy with the way my life is going right now. I don't want feelings for a girl who will probably get drunk at a frat house and fuck some small-dicked frat boy. Also because I can't physically be with her and have to drive 3 hours to see her.

I guess what I'm asking is, has anyone been in a similar situation? Any advice?